That time which I hate to remember

That time which I hate to remember
Where I lived in denial
Which I couldn’t realize then
Which I now acknowledge
My actions then reveal just that
I thought I had it under control
Unfortunately my leash was too long
Embarrassing moments I pulled behind
Unbeknown to me, haters laughed
I couldn’t see them on the rear window
Focused more on what’s oncoming
Had I kept the leash short and tight
Things would have happened by my side
If not in font of me the puller
That time which I hate to remember
With so much pains of love
And an enormous utter disdain
I turned out to be strong and mannish
That distress shall never trespass my space
#experience gained therefrom
Which will chaperon me #henceforth?
But hei! I can still forgive myself
#hitherto inexperience
That time which I hate to remember
Spun me into what can be remembered
#immortally
Such times can only make us stronger
#ironically